Today is the last day of 2005. I can’t believe how fast this year has gone by. I’m trying to think back to last years New Years Eve and i think we had family over and i ordered a ham from Gartners. The family that was here left early and it was the 5 of us ringing in the new year. (Mick, the boys, Buddy and myself). I had several resolutions- some I kept and some made me make a mental note to make a resolution this year to never make resolutions again. The biggest one was to ‘find Tina’-figure out who i was and what could make me happy. I can honestly say, i am happier now and I have figured out who i am and what i want-well, for the most part. If i had it ALL figured out, life would be boring.
Thomas turned 9 -celebrated by taking 5 friends bowling.
Had pinewood derby and Thomas took second in the den.
Graham slammed his finger in the van door which led to the nail falling off. UGH!
Started having severe stomach problems and went BACK to the doctor- was given Xantax (sp?) which did no good at all.
Got my belly button pierced to celebrate Valentines Day. Dark month for me- I’ve never liked February.
Went to Colorado to see my dad then on to New Mexico to see my mom. We were gone for about 12 days and had a wonderful time. (My health took a drastic turn for the worse this month. Went back to the doctor AGAIN and was given Nexium. ) The boys got to experience their first Colorado snow storm while we were there. They also got to see my old elementary school and the houses I lived in growing up. While in New Mexico we went to several museums and Cousin Kelly and her girls came to visit. Grandma flew kites with the boys while I rested a lot.
Thomas got bit by the neighbors dog
I sit and watch you play
Wondering what words to say
Can you tell what’s really on my mind?
I look into your eyes
Wondering if it will be a surprise
When I finally tell you what’s on my mind.
If I could find the way to explain
What’s wrong and whose to blame
For happiness I can’t seem to find
For so many years
I’ve cried those silent tears
while waiting for you to come on home
I throw in the perfect smile
My heart breaking all the while
wishing I wasn’t so alone.
I’ve said all the things to say
Waiting for that brand new day
When you keep the promises that you made
I hang on to your every word
silently screaming to be heard
but watching your love for me just fade…
I wait for time to go by
wondering ‘can i just survive’
in a life with out your love.
I look to heaven above
And beg God for your love
or just a sign you know that I’m alive.
You say you want to stay
but your are so far away
Chasing things you can not hide.
And all I have for you is me
Why is that so hard to see
why is it that my love is denied?
I don’t know what to say
without you stepping further away
and counterfeiting all those tears.
i wonder how long I can pretend
I have nothing left to defend
I’m filled with loneliness and fears.
If you could just take the time
To tell me everything is fine
And that we are on the same page.
I can spend another day
wondering where we lost our way
If I know you’ll be close behind.
I can’t tell you what’s wrong or right
or if we can win this fight.
is this something you want to try?
(i never finished writing this)
Went to Canada with Berdean and Mardean and had a wonderful time. My health was at it’s absolute worst by this point. I was cranky and probably not fun to be around- (so glad I don’t feel that way anymore)
Thomas got hit with a rock and had to have 3 staple stitches
Graham turned 6 and graduated from Kindergarden
Went to the Starlight parade and leaned a whole bunch of new knitting techniques from a very nice lady named Lupin. (her husband works with Mick)
Was MISdiagnosed with a reflux disorder and put on a special diet- which in turn contributed to the emergency surgery a few weeks later.
Bought a Love Sac to sleep on (couldn’t sleep comfortably in my bed due to stomach problems)
Emergency surgery and a LONG recovery BUT the beginning to the end of my stomach problems
My dad visited and we had a great time.
Dad bought me a wonderful digital camera that I fell in love with and took MANY pictures with
Went to see Revenge of the Sith (SWEET)
Thomas went to cut scout camp for 3 days and 2 nights. His first time away from home for that long. We went to visit him and had a wonderful time seeing his camp ground, mess hall, mail center, etc… I gave him money for a pocket knife that he really wanted. I had originally planned on going to camp with him but had a colonoscopy and othoscope scheduled in the middle of his stay. His other leader had to go in my place.
Thomas also got a brand new mountain bike that he and Mick picked out at the Bike Gallery.
A very nice older lady gave Graham and I money to buy ice cream because we found her purse in the grocery store.
Spent a lot of time in our little blow up pool
During the heat wave we swam in our pool, went to dinner at Montage, then down by the waterfront and then to IMax to see Willy Wonka. My favorite memory from the summer.
Went to the Waterfront for a jazz festival then out to dinner at Rock Bottom Brewry. (another really good memory)
Discovered Spinachi salads while having lunch with Mick down town. My life has NEVER been the same
Cancerous polyp found in my colon- this month is a blur to me.
(The polyp was removed and I was given strict instructions on how to live my life from then on. I have to follow up with tests in April ’06 to determine if i have more polyps or if I have chrones)
Went to End of the Oregon Trail Museum, then to lunch, then sight seeing- Good Memories
Took the boys to knitting class and got offered a job at my favorite yarn store. Learned A LOT more cool knitting techniques and met several cool fellow knitters.
Mick’s company picnic- and I didn’t get lost driving there this year!!! Had fun sitting in the shade with my pink hat- as I was not allowed to be in the sun at that point.
Back to School
Thomas started 4th grade
Graham started 1st grade
Mick turned 39
I started taking Life Drawing
Thomas started playing the cello.
Left on a 3 day retreat to Kah Nee Tah. First time I’ve ever left the boys for that long. Had a nice time but was SO glad to get home.
Both boys dressed as Darth Vader. We trick or treated until our feet hurt.
a very emotionally hard month for me. Probably the core of my sadness. But also a good month for me-I turned 36 and celebrated with a lot of insight. My art teacher gave me the opportunity of a life time- to work one on one with her. Everything took a turn for the better then. Cousin Natians came to visit for Thanksgiving and we had a great time.
Mom came to visit and we had a great time. Graham and Thomas spent the 2nd weekend alternately barfing. I did 10 loads of laundry that weekend- all bedding. Few days later Graham got really sick.
that’s my year at a glance.
Off to ring in the new year with the boys
figured out spell check! whoooo hoooo
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I’ll try to post later fall and Christmas photos soon!