Pick your pockets full of sorrow, run away with me tomorrow
sigh…. finally home and I am pooped. Today was a very busy day at school. Well, not so much for drawing- we had a lecture (ugh) and then went to the printmaking lab for a demo on drypoint. (my teacher does it every term to introduce a new medium to her drawing students). Since i don’t have my portfolio back yet I worked on my dragon drypoint for my printmaking class. I got 6 prints pulled- will turn in my 5 best. I’ll get those back tomorrow in lab and then I’ll upload them onto my gallery. My new assignments are gonna be tough because i don’t have a lot of time to get them all done. My classmates have one project left- multiple block print- and I have three: multiple block print, hard ground etching, and monotype. I keep reminding myself- she wouldn’t have given them to me if she didn’t think I couldn’t handle it…… I have been struggling with my composition for my multiple block print. I decided to do a rhino for Mick. It’s a cool looking rhino, but making it into a block print is just killing me. Mick’s friend Rob gave me some great suggestions but I am still pulling my hair out over this one. HOWEVER, if i can pull this one off it will be well worth it and very cool. A fellow printmaker said ‘go home and write music”. Apparently that will help me become a better printmaker. I’m not sure how so- but you never know.
Classes were good today. I love the printmaking studio. i love the people in the printmaking studio. two of the girls who are in the 3rd level kept asking me questions today about this hardground etching. I kept telling them- I haven’t done it before I’m only level 1! It’s so funny because at the beginning of the term they seemed a bit stand offish- but after talking with them today I see that they are both just VERY shy and very talented.
The two girls in my drawing class that insisted on using that electric pencil sharpener have stopped using it. (YIPEE) They sat by me this week and befriended me. They are frustrated in the class- as I am this term. They are both very talented and a bit off. But then again, so am I. 
(a bit off that is)
It will be a week tomorrow that Thomas got his hand slammed in the door and all hell broke loose. I’ve been trying to reflect on that situation and try to figure out what I could do differently next time. i don’t want to be upset by the actions/threats of other people. I don’t know how that situation could have been avoided or if anything could be done differently in the future. I think part of having kids is accepting responsibility for them and their actions and what comes with all of that. I’d love to live in a perfect world but we don’t. I don’t know….. Everything happens for a reason, I just haven’t figured the reason for this one.
I’ve been listening to Mayonaise by Smashing Pumpkins. I always forget how amazing that song is. The guitar is fabulous. All around beautiful song.
Ok, dinner time
T
Mayonaise
Smashing Pumpkins
Fool enough to almost be it
Cool enough to not quite see it
Doomed
Pick your pockets full of sorrow
And run away with me tomorrow
June
We’ll try and ease the pain
But somehow we’ll feel the same
Well, no one knows
Where our secrets go
I send a heart to all my dearies
When your life is so, so dreary
Dream
I’m rumored to the straight and narrow
While the harlots of my perils
Scream
And I fail
But when I can, I will
Try to understand
That when I can, I will
Mother weep the years I’m missing
All our time can’t be given
Back
Shut my mouth and strike the demons
That cursed you and your reasons
Out of hand and out of season
Out of love and out of feeling
So bad
When I can, I will
Words defy the plan
When I can, I will
Fool enough to almost be it
And cool enough to not quite see it
And old enough to always feel this
Always old, I’ll always feel this
No more promise no more sorrow
No longer will I follow
Can anybody hear me
I just want to be me
When I can, I will
Try to understand
That when I can, I will