sticks and stones part two
Sometimes I wish I wasn’t so wishy washy. I struggle with trying to take the moral high ground vs. standing up for myself. It’s that whole sticks and stones thing again. Is it better to take an insult punch and walk away- or stand your ground and let the other person know they better not mess with you again. There are advantages and disadvantages to both- and sometimes it’s really hard to weigh them out. Some people are imbeciles. There is NOTHING we can do to change that. But does that give them the license to treat people like crap- over and over again. Lets say you dislike their behavior and find them rude and insulting and down right nasty. Do you confront them or just walk away chanting ’sticks and stones may break my bones but words can never hurt me”. Is confronting them even going to make a difference or make it worse. In NOT confronting them- will they eventually run out of nasty things to say and stop the behavior on their own? I just do not know. I guess in the end if it’s a direct hit to me or my children then I have to stand my ground regardless of the consequences. And I’m ok with that.
Had painting yesterday. Ahhhhh painting….. we did mono-chromatic still life. Sounds boring as hell i know but it was really fun. I’m still trying to get used to acrylic paints- I’m so used to watercolor. I tend to thin my paint out to make it more pliable like watercolor- instead of just painting with the thick, lustrous paint. I had a question for my teacher yesterday and she explained it so well. She not only answered my question adequately- but made me feel like I understood it. (as opposed to being appalled that I didn’t already know the answer.) I found some amazing life drawing pictures in an art magazine that I am going to take into my life drawing teacher and explain to her that THIS is how I want to draw the human form. It’s contour drawing- and does not have all the squiggly lines in it and details. It’s just so simple and beautiful and it captures the human form in such an amazing way.
It’s 3:30am. I fell asleep early last night and now I’m wide awake. I’m going to try to sleep at least an hour or two more. we’ll see.
T