Salt of the Earth

i talked to my drawing teacher today about my frustrations. She actually took the time to help me figure a few things out- which was really awesome. I feel a little more hopeful and maybe just a little more motivated now. She sat down and showed me how to use ‘tools’ to draw. It was great considering I’m a very visual person. Personally I think she should have done this WAY back in October- but that’s just me. Would have saved me and more than half the class a hell of a lot of frustration. I just feel I should be MUCH further along than I am-and that that could only happen with guidance. Life Drawing is cognitive which by definition means the intelligent processing of information. well, if information isn’t given then how can it be processed.

i had a very eye opening email conversation today- with someone who made me see things a different way regarding this family shit going on. I think that my conclusion is that confrontation will only make it worse (unless it’s me or my kids being attacked). There’s not much I can do- because everyone has a difficult person in their family. What I can take and learn from all this is that I can just try to be a better person in my family. I know how it feels to be treated badly- and hear bad things being said. I don’t want to put anyone in that position. So I guess I’m saying that I am learning from the mistakes of this particular, difficult individual. I don’t want to be a difficult person that people dread being around and no one knows how to relate to.

I am going to stop taking iron as of today. My feet and ankles are so swollen it hurts to walk. I’m guessing it’s a side effect or that I have some crazy allergic reaction. I noticed it yesterday- and it’s worse today. I quit the iron for a few days to see if that works.

Tomorrow I print. All day- well, until the kids get out of school. My new printmaking teacher paid me the HIGHEST compliment- he said my piece was organic. In the printmaking world- that is the thing you strive for. And I have finally achieved it.
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