Summer time
Last day of school was yesterday- for the boys. The last week has been a total blur of end of the year activities all of them very fun and very celebratory. The highlights:te bag for all my time spent at the boys’ school. My friends and I even got up and sang BBBBBBad to the bone with the principal. (no alcohol involved)
-Thomas’ 5th grade party which was a whole day of absolute fun. The kids had a blast.
-Camping at Beacon Rock with the Boy Scouts (rained the whole time but still fun)
-Field day at the school which consisted of me painting faces all day long (very enjoyable)
-Last day of school which was a huge pizza party and day of pranks by the parents and teachers. (good fun)
I got bad news tonight. I wasn’t going to blog about it but it’s weighing heavy on my mind. My mom has had back problems for most of her adult life which have resulted in several major surgeries and constant pain. Throughout the last few years it’s gotten worse especially the last year. Lately she’s lost almost all ability to use her right leg do to the disc deterioration in her lower back. With all her pain has come a lot of depression. Consequently thoughts of ending her life have accompanied this depression. I spoke with her this morning prior to her doctors appointment and she sounded very depressed and kept mentioning that pain can make you do things you’d never dream of. I knew what she was alluding to and just tried to tell her about all the things she’d leave behind. My step dad called me tonight to tell me that the doc appointment didn’t go so well and that they told her that she’d probably be in a wheel chair within a year. This news is completely devastating to my mom as she is a very active person. I don’t think my mom has the energy to fight this fight anymore and thats basically what Tom (step dad) told me tonight. He said he’s never seen her this way before and he just wanted to give me the heads up and get my opinion on what we should do. I can’t imagine my life without my mom. It would be very sad. I’ve lived away from her since I was 15 but living without her would be so much harder. I wish i could fix this. I wish I could do something to change this. Mick is out of town until tomorrow. I’m going to get into my bed now.
Tina